Today was another one of those days. AJ came screaming up to the house because she had gone to check on our chickens and could only find one out of the three but feathers all around their yard.
CJ went down and, on further inspection, discovered that Nugget and BB had been killed by (we think) a fox. CJ heard some commotion early this morning when he was taking the engine out of his car but thought that one of the chooks was laying an egg. He now feels like crap, knowing that he could possibly have saved AJ's chooks. He feels like he has let her down. The girls are devastated. AJ is trying to be very brave but she is hurting.
We raised the chooks from babies. They lived in our bathroom for 8 weeks and then Mac - the girls' grandpa, my dad - built them a little hutch so they would be safe for a little longer until we had time to build a pen.
We did that last year and they were safe in there but only as safe as anything can be on acreage. Fluff, our third hen - Fluff and Peep were our 2nd lot of chicks to hand raise, given to us by our
good friends. Peep grew into a handsome rooster and is, at present, next door doing the do with the neighbours chooks and producing over a dozen babies so far. He really can puff his chest out and be all rooster in the hen house can't he? - managed to survive the attack this morning.
Tomorrow the girls will visit next door to see if there are any babies they can adopt. I have to admit to being a little concerned about the lesson we are teaching by doing this so soon. On the one hand, we live on acreage and this is life with animals but on the other I don't want my girls thinking that it is as easy as replacing our dearly departed. On the one hand, I want to stop the hurt that my girls are feeling and distract them with new baby chicks that will need all of their love and attention but on the other I worry that this will stop the process that is their grief.
I know some will say that this is life on a farm but these were not "working animals" they were our pets. I understand with working animals the need for replacement due to loss of income etc but I have always been led to believe that the loss of a pet teaches our children some fundamental lessons on loss and grief and life.
I could be wrong. What would I really know about it? None of my pets died until I was well into my 20s so these lessons were never part of my childhood.
I should point out that I don't think AJ would ever forget a pet. She is far too loyal right down to our cars and can still remember the first car we traded in but would it be so bad to have some new chickens to shower with love and affection and distract her just a little?
And then I look at those innocent, so very sad little faces and think how wonderful it would be that things could be fixed so easily and maybe I should allow them this innocence before they have to realise the harshness of an adult world where replacement could never make our losses right or mend broken hearts or erase memories.
So, tomorrow, I think we will be going to adopt some new chickens.